[The words are soft, not sad but a little introspective. How could he possibly be sad when Izuku is right here in his arms kissing him and telling him that he has feelings for him, feelings like his own? But the truth is, he's not sure. It would have been so easy to let his father drive him further and further down that path, behind so many layers of ice no one would be able to unfreeze him. He could have ended up so cold he couldn't even see if he was doing the right thing. He could have ended up a villain, obsessed with taking his father down, once and for all. It wouldn't be hard to see that future, back at the beginning of his time at UA.
But now isn't for thinking about that, especially as Izuku leans his forehead against his, and then gives him another of those sweet, soft kisses that's over way too fast.]
Mmhm. I think I felt that way even before, but...after that, in the hospital, was when I realized. The way I was worried about you and the way I worried about Iida were different. I just--I guess I never thought you'd feel the same way. You're just so good to everyone.
[He's like the sun, and it'll never make sense to Shouto the way people don't notice that more often. But he'll appreciate him enough for any number of people, especially now. Now that he knows Izuku feels the same way.
Although--Izuku also feels cold, too, and he can't have that, can he?]
I'll make sure I take care of it tomorrow. But...for tonight, maybe we should sleep together?
[The connotations of those words don't sink in until he's said them, and the moment he realizes how it could be taken can't be missed from that close, the way his eyes widen a little and a faint pink rises to his cheeks.]
I mean, share a bed. More blankets that way, and sharing body heat is supposed to help prevent hypothermia, too.
[Neither one of them is gonna get hypothermia. But the idea of curling up with Izuku and sleeping all night is definitely a compelling one.]
[Izuku listens while watching Shouto in quiet amazement, shaking his head a little in almost disbelief.] Wow... Ever since then, huh...? You really saved us back then, you know. Stain would have killed Iida if you hadn't shown up when you did... I wasn't able to do anything because I wasn't able to move... and then inspiring Iida to get up... I was honestly terrified when Stain came at you with his sword... I thought he might cut your arm off... but your words got Iida on his feet and you and him worked together and it was so cool how you guys made such an amazing team. [Izuku gave a soft, disappointed sigh.] It's a little frustrating we can't tell anyone the truth, because you deserve a lot of the credit for taking Stain down. Iida too, even if he didn't go about it the right way at first.
[He makes a thoughtful sound, a contemplative expression on his face.] I think... maybe even back then I... I don't think I realized it at the time but... When you said the way you worried about Iida and the way you worried about me was different, I... understand that, even if I was worried about you both. It was just... different. [It feels hard to put in to words, so he just gives a little nod that he gets it.
His face colors slightly when Shouto says he's good with everyone.] W-well, I try my best to be nice to everyone! But there's definitely nobody else I want to... to kiss and... you know... sit with this close and... and things... [Yep, stammering flustered mess Izuku has made a reappearance.
And it only gets worse at the next thing Shouto says, Izuku's eyes flying open wider. But then Shouto explains and Izuku's surprise fades a bit.] Oh! I, uh... Yeah, that'd be great! I'd... I'd really like that. [Curling up in a bed with Shouto for the whole night? How does one stop their brain from exploding? Izuku doesn't know.] I read that too! About sharing body heat, I mean. We'd definitely be warmer that way! [He trails off into an awkward laugh, then immediately chastises himself about it because no, Izuku, things aren't supposed to be awkward anymore! You can talk about this stuff now!]
I, uhm... [He looks down at his hands, too flustered to keep looking Shouto in the face.] I... wouldn't... mind... doing the other thing either... I don't... really feel as tired anymore...? [How can he feel tired when his heart is racing and his body feels flushed thinking about 'sharing body heat' with Shouto that is definitely not in the way that Shouto suggested?] I-I mean... ['I wouldn't mind' does it nowhere near enough justice, so he amends it a bit.] I'd... I'd really really like to... if you want to too...
[Things are still allowed to be a little awkward! They're still figuring all this out, and while Shouto doesn't know about Izuku, he's still incredibly new to all of this. Of course, it feels really, really nice to hear Izuku say there's nobody else he wants to kiss, or be this close with, but he really doesn't even know what comes next.
Except. Well. Apparently his quirk isn't the only thing Izuku goes plus ultra on, and now it's Shouto's turn to look surprised and more than a little flustered.]
You...?
[Oh. Oh. He's suddenly very, very aware of how close Izuku is, and how dry his mouth is, swallowing a little convulsively. The other thing, huh. He should...probably say something. And stop the direction his mind is wandering off in.]
I don't really...I mean, I've. Never done that before. And I don't really...have the stuff you need for it? It isn't that I don't want to with you eventually, just--I didn't even know you liked me.
[Because he definitely, definitely does want! He's maybe had more than a few dreams in that vein! More than you should have about a friend, for sure. But he's definitely in over his head here. Still, he doesn't want Izuku to get the wrong impression, and so despite his flushed face and embarrassed admission, he reaches up, fingers gentle on Izuku's cheek as he redirects his face upward, leaning in closer.]
I definitely want to do this more, though.
[This kiss is more confident than the last, a little more sure of what he's doing. He'd really like to do the other thing, too, but if they have the right supplies, and not rushing just because this might be the only chance they have. Because it definitely won't be, if he's got anything to say about it.]
I... I haven't ever either... With anyone, I mean... Just... done things on my own... and had thoughts and... d-dreams and... yeah... [God, this is so embarrassing and his face feels like it's on fire from how red it feels.] I, uhm... I have... stuff...? [Wow, he really is doing a stand up job at talking clearly without stammering, isn't he.] L-lube, I mean.
[Look, okay, he's a hormonal teenager that's been in enough situations by now to have learned that it can never hurt to have an extra packet or two of lube packed in your bag when you're going on a trip somewhere. Sure, your hand can work just fine, but if you're experimenting with fingers inside yourself like he has before, you definitely need lube, and it just makes jerking yourself off easier with it too, with far less chafing. That on top of being alone in a cabin with Shouto for the weekend? Yeah, he definitely packed more than a couple packets of lube. He never in a million years thought he'd be possibly using them with Shouto and not just thinking about Shouto while using them but... yes. Yes, he has plenty of lube.
And has he mumbled some of this out loud?
Of course he has.
But then Shouto is distracting him from that train of thought by tilting his face upwards, and Izuku's eyes widen a little as Shouto leans in to kiss him again.
He makes a really embarrassing half-sigh, half-moaning noise, feeling himself go boneless for a moment before he presses back up into the kiss, sliding his arms around Shouto's waist in a loose hug.
When they part, Izuku keeps his eyes closed for a little bit longer, slowly licking his lips in a slightly dazed expression.] That... Definitely more of that, yes... Lots and... lots and lots of that...
[And you know what, while he's high on Shouto's kiss, he's going to use that feeling as fuel for bravery. He's implied it before with It's more than just liking you at this point, but he's never actually said it properly yet, so... Taking in a deep breath, he looks Shouto straight in the eyes and says:] I don't just like you, Shouto... Is it... Is it too weird for me to say that... I love you...? That's why I want to... do that with you... because I know my feelings are that strong... b-but we don't have to tonight! It doesn't matter when or even if we ever, I just... The most important thing is I just want to be with you, however that is. I just want to be by your side.
[Thoughts? Dreams?? He has stuff??? Maybe he'd managed to fall asleep, after all. Maybe he's dreaming right now. That honestly seems like the likelier prospect right now. Because this conversation can't really be happening, can it? Especially when Izuku starts doing that thing he does, and Shouto blinks himself back into the conversation in time to hear the other boy mumbling to himself about experimenting with fingers and thinking about Shouto while--
Yeah. Yeah, it's gotta be a dream.
Except that kiss feels so very real, and Izuku's muscular arms around his waist are just as real, and his skin is warm underneath Shouto's palm and that noise he makes is definitely doing things to Shouto that don't really happen in dreams. Or, well--they do, but it generally doesn't pinch, in a dream, and he shifts a little, trying to adjust things without drawing attention to them.
Of course, what Izuku says next is enough to make all thought of that drop from his mind, too.]
You...?
[Love. He loves. He...]
...Am I dreaming?
[It sounds a little silly, maybe, but honestly, he's not sure even now.]
[Izuku blinks at him a couple times, taking those words in, before his mouth curls up into a half shy, but half amused smile. He might be dense in some matters, but he's a pretty quick thinker most of the time, so he puts something together.] That... sounds like it implies you dream about me... you know... saying that to you... Is that true, Shouto...? Do you really dream about me? [His cheeks might still be blushing something hard, but that grin of amusement doesn't drop, and he can feel the stretch in his cheeks from how wide it is.]
To answer your question... No. No, you're not dreaming. I really... [He lifts a hand up to press it gently against Shouto's face, right on his right along his scar and running his thumb gently along it.] really do.
[And then he pauses, and because he's Izuku, does go off a bit into nerd land.] I mean, if you are dreaming, then I'd have to be dreaming too, because we're interacting, but I've dreamed about something like this happening before, so I could be the one dreaming, but if it is, then it's a really really good one... or it could be a shared dream, but that would be really weird because there's nobody nearby us with that kind of power, at least not that I'm aware of, so... no, I'm pretty sure we're both awake. [And then he smiles warmly at Shouto again.] In any case, I can definitely understand that feeling...
[Okay, so it's Shouto's turn to fluster, cheeks bright pink. Has he dreamed about Izuku? Yes, way more than once, and while some of those dreams have been soft and romantic, more than a few have definitely been much, much more graphic. Even with Izuku having said everything he's said so far, Shouto's not sure he's ready to start divulging that, though. Maybe eventually--maybe later tonight, even, if he finds the courage--but not right now. (that teasing tone in Izuku's voice is probably going to be making an appearance in the next set, though. He's pretty much doomed.)
Fortunately, Izuku doesn't make him answer. He just presses his palm to Shouto's cheek, and Shouto rests his own hand on the back of it, laughing softly as Izuku starts to do that thing he does, some knot of tension in his chest loosening as something warm curls through his body.]
Okay. Okay, so it's not a dream. But...the answer's yes. Yeah. I have dreamed about you. More than a few times. About us, like this. Not stuck in a cabin, exactly, but...together. Just us. Me telling you how I feel, and you telling me you feel the same way.
[Is this his way of saying 'I love you, too'? Kind of, yeah.]
[Izuku tilts his face to the side slightly while closing his eyes, smiling, and making a little hee sound.] I understand. [Shouto doesn't need to tell him for him to get it.
Opening his eyes so he can look at him properly, Izuku asks:] So... what do you want to do now...? I can... go get the... the thing... [He's really going to have to work on not being embarrassed to use the actual words for things like 'lube'.] Or we can just stay here and keep on what we were doing! I'm really good with that too. [Because he absolutely needs more kisses with Shouto. He feels like he hasn't had even close to enough to be content and satisfied, and there's something about making out in front of a warm fireplace that has a little thrill shooting through him.] I'm comfortable with whatever you're comfortable with.
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[The words are soft, not sad but a little introspective. How could he possibly be sad when Izuku is right here in his arms kissing him and telling him that he has feelings for him, feelings like his own? But the truth is, he's not sure. It would have been so easy to let his father drive him further and further down that path, behind so many layers of ice no one would be able to unfreeze him. He could have ended up so cold he couldn't even see if he was doing the right thing. He could have ended up a villain, obsessed with taking his father down, once and for all. It wouldn't be hard to see that future, back at the beginning of his time at UA.
But now isn't for thinking about that, especially as Izuku leans his forehead against his, and then gives him another of those sweet, soft kisses that's over way too fast.]
Mmhm. I think I felt that way even before, but...after that, in the hospital, was when I realized. The way I was worried about you and the way I worried about Iida were different. I just--I guess I never thought you'd feel the same way. You're just so good to everyone.
[He's like the sun, and it'll never make sense to Shouto the way people don't notice that more often. But he'll appreciate him enough for any number of people, especially now. Now that he knows Izuku feels the same way.
Although--Izuku also feels cold, too, and he can't have that, can he?]
I'll make sure I take care of it tomorrow. But...for tonight, maybe we should sleep together?
[The connotations of those words don't sink in until he's said them, and the moment he realizes how it could be taken can't be missed from that close, the way his eyes widen a little and a faint pink rises to his cheeks.]
I mean, share a bed. More blankets that way, and sharing body heat is supposed to help prevent hypothermia, too.
[Neither one of them is gonna get hypothermia. But the idea of curling up with Izuku and sleeping all night is definitely a compelling one.]
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[He makes a thoughtful sound, a contemplative expression on his face.] I think... maybe even back then I... I don't think I realized it at the time but... When you said the way you worried about Iida and the way you worried about me was different, I... understand that, even if I was worried about you both. It was just... different. [It feels hard to put in to words, so he just gives a little nod that he gets it.
His face colors slightly when Shouto says he's good with everyone.] W-well, I try my best to be nice to everyone! But there's definitely nobody else I want to... to kiss and... you know... sit with this close and... and things... [Yep, stammering flustered mess Izuku has made a reappearance.
And it only gets worse at the next thing Shouto says, Izuku's eyes flying open wider. But then Shouto explains and Izuku's surprise fades a bit.] Oh! I, uh... Yeah, that'd be great! I'd... I'd really like that. [Curling up in a bed with Shouto for the whole night? How does one stop their brain from exploding? Izuku doesn't know.] I read that too! About sharing body heat, I mean. We'd definitely be warmer that way! [He trails off into an awkward laugh, then immediately chastises himself about it because no, Izuku, things aren't supposed to be awkward anymore! You can talk about this stuff now!]
I, uhm... [He looks down at his hands, too flustered to keep looking Shouto in the face.] I... wouldn't... mind... doing the other thing either... I don't... really feel as tired anymore...? [How can he feel tired when his heart is racing and his body feels flushed thinking about 'sharing body heat' with Shouto that is definitely not in the way that Shouto suggested?] I-I mean... ['I wouldn't mind' does it nowhere near enough justice, so he amends it a bit.] I'd... I'd really really like to... if you want to too...
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Except. Well. Apparently his quirk isn't the only thing Izuku goes plus ultra on, and now it's Shouto's turn to look surprised and more than a little flustered.]
You...?
[Oh. Oh. He's suddenly very, very aware of how close Izuku is, and how dry his mouth is, swallowing a little convulsively. The other thing, huh. He should...probably say something. And stop the direction his mind is wandering off in.]
I don't really...I mean, I've. Never done that before. And I don't really...have the stuff you need for it? It isn't that I don't want to with you eventually, just--I didn't even know you liked me.
[Because he definitely, definitely does want! He's maybe had more than a few dreams in that vein! More than you should have about a friend, for sure. But he's definitely in over his head here. Still, he doesn't want Izuku to get the wrong impression, and so despite his flushed face and embarrassed admission, he reaches up, fingers gentle on Izuku's cheek as he redirects his face upward, leaning in closer.]
I definitely want to do this more, though.
[This kiss is more confident than the last, a little more sure of what he's doing. He'd really like to do the other thing, too, but if they have the right supplies, and not rushing just because this might be the only chance they have. Because it definitely won't be, if he's got anything to say about it.]
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[Look, okay, he's a hormonal teenager that's been in enough situations by now to have learned that it can never hurt to have an extra packet or two of lube packed in your bag when you're going on a trip somewhere. Sure, your hand can work just fine, but if you're experimenting with fingers inside yourself like he has before, you definitely need lube, and it just makes jerking yourself off easier with it too, with far less chafing. That on top of being alone in a cabin with Shouto for the weekend? Yeah, he definitely packed more than a couple packets of lube. He never in a million years thought he'd be possibly using them with Shouto and not just thinking about Shouto while using them but... yes. Yes, he has plenty of lube.
And has he mumbled some of this out loud?
Of course he has.
But then Shouto is distracting him from that train of thought by tilting his face upwards, and Izuku's eyes widen a little as Shouto leans in to kiss him again.
He makes a really embarrassing half-sigh, half-moaning noise, feeling himself go boneless for a moment before he presses back up into the kiss, sliding his arms around Shouto's waist in a loose hug.
When they part, Izuku keeps his eyes closed for a little bit longer, slowly licking his lips in a slightly dazed expression.] That... Definitely more of that, yes... Lots and... lots and lots of that...
[And you know what, while he's high on Shouto's kiss, he's going to use that feeling as fuel for bravery. He's implied it before with It's more than just liking you at this point, but he's never actually said it properly yet, so... Taking in a deep breath, he looks Shouto straight in the eyes and says:] I don't just like you, Shouto... Is it... Is it too weird for me to say that... I love you...? That's why I want to... do that with you... because I know my feelings are that strong... b-but we don't have to tonight! It doesn't matter when or even if we ever, I just... The most important thing is I just want to be with you, however that is. I just want to be by your side.
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Yeah. Yeah, it's gotta be a dream.
Except that kiss feels so very real, and Izuku's muscular arms around his waist are just as real, and his skin is warm underneath Shouto's palm and that noise he makes is definitely doing things to Shouto that don't really happen in dreams. Or, well--they do, but it generally doesn't pinch, in a dream, and he shifts a little, trying to adjust things without drawing attention to them.
Of course, what Izuku says next is enough to make all thought of that drop from his mind, too.]
You...?
[Love. He loves. He...]
...Am I dreaming?
[It sounds a little silly, maybe, but honestly, he's not sure even now.]
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To answer your question... No. No, you're not dreaming. I really... [He lifts a hand up to press it gently against Shouto's face, right on his right along his scar and running his thumb gently along it.] really do.
[And then he pauses, and because he's Izuku, does go off a bit into nerd land.] I mean, if you are dreaming, then I'd have to be dreaming too, because we're interacting, but I've dreamed about something like this happening before, so I could be the one dreaming, but if it is, then it's a really really good one... or it could be a shared dream, but that would be really weird because there's nobody nearby us with that kind of power, at least not that I'm aware of, so... no, I'm pretty sure we're both awake. [And then he smiles warmly at Shouto again.] In any case, I can definitely understand that feeling...
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[Okay, so it's Shouto's turn to fluster, cheeks bright pink. Has he dreamed about Izuku? Yes, way more than once, and while some of those dreams have been soft and romantic, more than a few have definitely been much, much more graphic. Even with Izuku having said everything he's said so far, Shouto's not sure he's ready to start divulging that, though. Maybe eventually--maybe later tonight, even, if he finds the courage--but not right now. (that teasing tone in Izuku's voice is probably going to be making an appearance in the next set, though. He's pretty much doomed.)
Fortunately, Izuku doesn't make him answer. He just presses his palm to Shouto's cheek, and Shouto rests his own hand on the back of it, laughing softly as Izuku starts to do that thing he does, some knot of tension in his chest loosening as something warm curls through his body.]
Okay. Okay, so it's not a dream. But...the answer's yes. Yeah. I have dreamed about you. More than a few times. About us, like this. Not stuck in a cabin, exactly, but...together. Just us. Me telling you how I feel, and you telling me you feel the same way.
[Is this his way of saying 'I love you, too'? Kind of, yeah.]
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Opening his eyes so he can look at him properly, Izuku asks:] So... what do you want to do now...? I can... go get the... the thing... [He's really going to have to work on not being embarrassed to use the actual words for things like 'lube'.] Or we can just stay here and keep on what we were doing! I'm really good with that too. [Because he absolutely needs more kisses with Shouto. He feels like he hasn't had even close to enough to be content and satisfied, and there's something about making out in front of a warm fireplace that has a little thrill shooting through him.] I'm comfortable with whatever you're comfortable with.