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[ one quick (not frantic; just quick!!) side conversation later... ]

Oh! Yes, of course, people often celebrate their birthdays in my world as well! I simply misunderstood. I thought perhaps you were referring to one of the many festivals they observe here in Lunatia. But it is a little hard to know exactly when to celebrate it. You mentioned yours is coming up if the calendar is right, but unless the date in your world when you left and the date in this world when you arrived were exactly the same, the normal anniversary date will not really correspond with the date on which you've completed your seventeenth year of life.

[ ... ]

Right?

[ now back to the easy part!!! ]

Midoriya, Iida, and Jiro. I do not recall having met anyone by those names as of yet, but I will keep an eye out for them! After all, you and I get along, and you and those three get along, so there is probably no reason the three of them and I will not get along. What exactly do you mean when you say you want to be useful?

I guess you're right. Probably not much point. It definitely won't have been a year when it comes around again in January.

[Which, fine. Whatever, no big deal.]

I think you'd like them. They're good people. Midoriya especially--I owe him a lot.

I mean, I want to be able to help people, however I can. Back home, I was training to be a hero. Someone who helps people, or fights villains, or rescues civilians from disaster or accidents. Here I'm sort of having to learn some new skills, too. Chroma makes everything kind of complicated.

[He's still figuring out how this all works, okay, asking a 16-year-old who's never even thought about kissing another person romantically to start kissing people--or more!!--for energy is complicated...]

No, there is a point! Well I think there is probably a point. The date itself holds meaning, right? Perhaps you could celebrate them both: the anniversary date, and then whatever date marks the completion of your year. Ah Hmm Certainly I understand wanting to be a hero who helps and protects others, and fights for justice. I think that is very admirable, and that is also the kind of person I wish to be. Framing it as "being useful," though I wonder Is it really all right to think of a person in terms of how "useful" they are? Even if that person is yourself?

Maybe I will. That's not a bad idea.

I mean

It's not that I think of anyone as being particularly useless

Mostly

More like...I just want to feel like I'm doing something that matters. Even though I'm still pretty young, and I'm still learning how to be a hero. I don't even have my provisional license yet. So, useful might not be the right word? But it's how I feel.

I see... I suppose I am mm not "projecting" That thing of where I have a bad association with something, that really does not have anything to do with you, but I cannot help thinking about it and feeling uncomfortable? But that is neither here nor there! In any case I think you are already doing things that matter. But by all means, you should keep moving forward, and do whatever you must to become the version of yourself you are proudest to be!

I understand

Not sure what the word is for it either, but I get it. There's probably a better word for what I mean, anyway

That's sort of what I'm trying to do. Even here, away from home. I've actually thought about joining the Moon Knights, maybe...they take applicants at 16. And I'd feel like I'm helping. But I'm not sure about swearing allegiance to a place I'm not going to stay.

Since they allow Moonblessed to join their ranks, they probably understand that you are liable to return to your own world at an unpredictable time. And one hopes they have a modified version of their vows, or motto, or whatever to account for that... It does feel strange, though. Even though I have already lived here longer than I did in Magnostadt, it still seems somehow as though I am only a guest. There are many reasons why it is inevitable that the Prismals would see us as a different category of beings from themselves, but nevertheless... Well I don't really know what I mean to say.

That would make sense. I just don't want to break a vow like that, accidentally or not. It's a pretty serious commitment.

I guess I kind of know what you mean. I've been here for months now. Longer than I was even in the dorms at UA. Almost the same amount of time I've even been at UA. But it still feels temporary. Maybe because people I know keep disappearing, and I never know who's going to be next...

True. But the fact that you cannot promise you will be able to do it forever doesn't mean it is not still worth doing for as long as you can. ...Probably.

...Yeah. After all, isn't being a hero the same? You never know which villain fight is going to be your last.

Sorry, this probably isn't the happiest conversation, is it?

Ha Well, it is like that for most people, I think Even if the specific circumstances differ. Would you want to know? Which villain fight would be the last.

Honestly? I'm not sure. I worry that if I knew, I might be too worried about the people I'm leaving behind to give it my all. Or maybe I'd fight harder for them. I'm not sure.

[ it's a long time before he answers. ]

Well I suppose now I am the one who should apologize for the unhappy conversation topic.

No, you're fine. Really. I don't mind. Actually it's kind of nice being able to talk about this kind of thing without someone getting worried about me, or thinking it's weird.

So, thanks.

[ now he feels kind of bad / awkward about the fact that he mostly wasn't thinking about shouto at all. ]

It's not weird! I think it might be more worrying if you were aiming to become a hero without ever having thought about these things. It shows you are serious about it, you know?

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