Shoto Todoroki (
numbertwohero) wrote2019-08-06 11:31 pm
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His mother has good days and bad days.
On the good days, she's sweet and kind. She greets him with a hand on his cheek and a smile, she asks him how his classes are going, she remembers the friends he mentions and teases him about being popular with the girls. They go for long walks in the facility grounds and she tells him about the plants she's growing in the little space they've let her have, and he ends the visit with a hug, her thin, fragile form in his careful arms, and he wonders at how much smaller than him she is already. On the good days, he leaves with hope and renewed determination to become the best he can be, to show his father that number two isn't just second place and it's a place and a life to be proud of.
This was not a good day.
This was the kind of day where he opened her door and she looked at him for that first second with fear and hatred and sorrow, where her eyes lingered on his left side too long, no matter how much he tried to keep her on his right. This was the kind of day where every response was distracted and her voice too high-pitched and her laughter sharp and strained. This was the day that, when he reached out to stop her from walking in front of a speeding golf cart full of groundskeepers, she flinched from his touch and slapped him across the face.
She'd apologized, horror on her face and heartbreak in her voice, and he'd said it was fine, and he loved her, but he left soon after, hurrying back towards the school dorms where he could just...shut himself away. It was still early on Sunday. Everyone would still be out, or training, and he could have time to put himself back together. His right cheek is still burning from her slap, stinging and red and almost bruised, and it aches with a pain sharper and more real than the phantom ache of his scarred left side. It's a strange feeling. Normally that side doesn't feel hot. Everything is backwards. Everything is backwards, and his chest is tight, and he can feel the tears trying to burn at his eyes, but it's fine, he's almost there--
--and then he rounds the corner of the stairs heading up towards the fourth floor, and almost runs straight into Midoriya, coming down. Todoroki's eyes are wide, almost glassy, and his heart is racing, and it's only a second before he looks away, not quite flinching but all but vibrating with tension.
"...Sorry. I didn't see you there."
His voice is rough, strained, just as tight as his shoulders, and he waits for Midoriya to keep on going, to be tactful or distracted or whatever it is he needs to be, so he can finally make it up that last flight to his own floor and the safety of his room.
On the good days, she's sweet and kind. She greets him with a hand on his cheek and a smile, she asks him how his classes are going, she remembers the friends he mentions and teases him about being popular with the girls. They go for long walks in the facility grounds and she tells him about the plants she's growing in the little space they've let her have, and he ends the visit with a hug, her thin, fragile form in his careful arms, and he wonders at how much smaller than him she is already. On the good days, he leaves with hope and renewed determination to become the best he can be, to show his father that number two isn't just second place and it's a place and a life to be proud of.
This was not a good day.
This was the kind of day where he opened her door and she looked at him for that first second with fear and hatred and sorrow, where her eyes lingered on his left side too long, no matter how much he tried to keep her on his right. This was the kind of day where every response was distracted and her voice too high-pitched and her laughter sharp and strained. This was the day that, when he reached out to stop her from walking in front of a speeding golf cart full of groundskeepers, she flinched from his touch and slapped him across the face.
She'd apologized, horror on her face and heartbreak in her voice, and he'd said it was fine, and he loved her, but he left soon after, hurrying back towards the school dorms where he could just...shut himself away. It was still early on Sunday. Everyone would still be out, or training, and he could have time to put himself back together. His right cheek is still burning from her slap, stinging and red and almost bruised, and it aches with a pain sharper and more real than the phantom ache of his scarred left side. It's a strange feeling. Normally that side doesn't feel hot. Everything is backwards. Everything is backwards, and his chest is tight, and he can feel the tears trying to burn at his eyes, but it's fine, he's almost there--
--and then he rounds the corner of the stairs heading up towards the fourth floor, and almost runs straight into Midoriya, coming down. Todoroki's eyes are wide, almost glassy, and his heart is racing, and it's only a second before he looks away, not quite flinching but all but vibrating with tension.
"...Sorry. I didn't see you there."
His voice is rough, strained, just as tight as his shoulders, and he waits for Midoriya to keep on going, to be tactful or distracted or whatever it is he needs to be, so he can finally make it up that last flight to his own floor and the safety of his room.

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He chews on his lower lip. "I don't even remember the weird song all Ariel's sisters sing at the beginning," he admits, but Todoroki is absolutely not imagining him squirming a little closer. Granted, it's in part because he's trying to hide the embarrassed pink darkening his face, but he's still absolutely ducking to hide against his collar again.
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They'd been holding hands. And then Izuku had asked to hug him, and he'd climbed into his lap, and it had been so comfortable...
It's okay if Izuku buries his face again, even if Shouto thinks his eyes are even prettier. All he does is slide a hand up the length of Izuku's back and down again, tracing the length of his spine, marveling a little both at the shape of the muscles and the fact that he's even here. That they're both here, this close, and it doesn't feel strange at all. In fact, he could just close his eyes and drift right back off, if he wanted to, and part of him really does.
Tucking his face down against Izuku's, Shouto breathes deeply, fingertips brushing the nape of his neck. "You fit like this, too," he says sleepily, and the words don't seem to sound strange at all. "I like it. I've never slept with anyone like this before." And yet, here they are.
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"M-me neither!" He's chirping again, voice pitched higher with nerves at how close Shouto is. His hand at his neck, their faces so close, their legs still tangled and bodies fit together. He really did fit comfortably here, but just because it felt right, felt nice, was it, really? "It's embarrassing, you're a lot taller than me. That's probably why I fit well, it's like penguins, their babies are little and sit under them for warmth. Not that I'm a baby, or a penguin, I actually don't like cold weather very much at all." Please help him, he's rambling.
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Even the chattering is comfortable. He never feels alone, even with his eyes closed, as long as there's that constant stream of words that Izuku is so good at providing, and Shouto does his best to listen, even when he sometimes falls off track. Like now.
"It's not embarrassing, just because you're smaller doesn't mean anything. You're still stronger," he says, and gets distracted all over again by just how muscular the smaller boy is. Again, maybe not the kind of thing he should be noticing, but here he is. Here they are.
And he's fallen off track again, distracted. That chatter is calming, and he's been drifting a little, catching the occasional word--he was talking about penguins, he thinks?--but he comes back in just in time for the end. "You should find me if you ever get too cold. I'll keep you warm," he murmurs, his eyes closing again as his arm slips back down to Izuku's waist. He would keep him warm. Absolutely.
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Getting tangled up in him in his bed, watching a movie, limbs and breath mingling as they discover each other, warm and pliable, comforting one another in ways neither of them really understand, but both gravitate toward anyway. His breath catches in his throat.
"Todoroki-kun," he whispers, craning his neck and pressing his lips to the juncture of his neck and jawline. "...Todoroki-kun." He falls into repetition, saying his name over and over again and kissing his skin, gently, his voice getting thicker as he goes, choked with emotion and something else he can't pinpoint. He's so warm, and they're so close, and he just wants to slot himself flush to his friend's body and really feel him--
--he's reminded of his earlier thought process involving his hands in his pants, and his face and ears flare scarlet, but he stays put, heartbeat stuttering wildly. "I'm not being completely honest with you, and that isn't fair," he breathes, mouth near his earlobe.
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He'll just have to say these things more so he has a chance to get used to hearing them, Shouto decides, but that train of thought too is entirely derailed at the way Izuku says his name, and then presses lips to the edge of his jaw in what is unmistakably a kiss. The sensation sends a shiver down his spine, one that's magnified as he does it again, and again, and his arm tightens just a little around the other boy's waist as he tilts his head back slightly, inviting more. As many more as he wants, honestly, because he doesn't want this to stop.
Of course, eventually it has to, and he's almost disappointed, except that Izuku is whispering in his ear in a way that does some incredible things all on its own, warmth spreading through the pit of his stomach.
He shouldn't get that distracted. He should focus on those words. They're important, right? I'm not being completely honest with you, Izuku says, and that's confusing enough that he pauses, tilting his own head in turn to murmur against the other's cheek. "You know you can tell me anything," he says, and doesn't even bother trying to resist the urge to kiss the side of his neck, the hollow behind his ear. Whatever it is, Izuku would never lie in a way that hurt him. Shouto's sure of it.
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"I've probably liked you, maybe more than just as a friend, for a while now," he admits, and his voice is small. He sounds afraid of the words, pressing his face against the hollow of his shoulder. "Today I was just worried for you, but now... All this, it's not fair unless you know." The shaking to his shoulders becomes constant, like he's cold.
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What he has to say makes Shouto's heart pound in his chest. What he has to say makes him wonder if he's still asleep, because he must still be dreaming. Except he couldn't dream this, could he? The warmth of Izuku's breath against his collar bone, the way he's trembling in Shouto's arms like he's freezing, even as his face burns with that flush.
"Oh." Really, oh? Is that all he can manage, a quietly surprised sound? After all of that? Sure, he wasn't expecting to hear something so bold from Izuku, but given what they've been doing, it can't have been that much of a surprise.
He should say something.
"Then...I guess neither one of us has been totally honest," he tries again, voice just as quiet and careful, soft in a way he rarely is. "Because I think I've been feeling the same way. I like being friends with you, but--it's not just that." Nudging Izuku's head with his nose, he pulls back slightly, enough so that he can get a better look at his face, a question on his own. "Do you...want to stop? Because we can. If you aren't comfortable..." He'd never want to pressure Izuku into anything he's not comfortable with, but this...he doesn't want to stop this, either.
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He flinches when Shouto starts talking again, quiet as it is, and he's a little startled he didn't just burst into tears, but it's like he's too shaken up to actually cry, because the very real thought that he's just ruined a friendship he's cherished so much makes him so stressed he feels sick. I guess neither one of us has been totally honest, he says, and it's such a mild statement, it could mean anything, and when he shrinks away to look at him his whole expression goes from drawn up in fear to complete slack-faced shock, because did he really hear that right, just now? I think I've been feeling the same way, he said, right? Izuku makes a wordless little croak of a sound, still shaking like his very bones are trying to escape his skin.
"I-- n-no, no, that's... this... this is really nice, if... If you want to, th-then... then I want to."
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He'll get better at this, too. If it's for Izuku...he'll do it, no question.
But for now, that's not a no, and even if Izuku is having a really strong case of nerves, he's not crying, and he's not pulling away. Shouto studies his face a moment longer, then pulls him close again, brushing a soft kiss against his cheek. "Tell me if you want me to stop," he murmurs, as his hand slides down Izuku's back again, the tips of his fingers just barely slipping under Izuku's shirt to brush against bare skin. Whatever it is they're feeling, he isn't going to run from it. It feels too good to run from.
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He turns his head, brushing his skin against Shouto's, shyly putting his lips to his cheek.
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"You're so warm," he whispers, something soft and a little awed in his voice, a tiny smile ghosting across his lips as Izuku kisses his cheek. Shouto follows suit, kiss for kiss as they seem to be trading, but this time he doesn't pull away, his lips still brushing Izuku's cheek, the edge of his jaw. His skin is so soft, especially here, soft in all the places that don't see combat, and he wonders...
"...Can I kiss you?"
Even after all this, there's a certain uncertainty to the words. What if this is one step too far? What if it's too fast, never mind how long either of them may have been moving towards this? And after all, it's his first time--what if he messes it up? But... it's too late to take it back now, and he doesn't want to. Not this, and not with him.
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"Oh," he says, and nods as opposed to answering. "I... yeah, that... I'd like that."
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Pulling back just a little, he licks his lips in a self-conscious gesture, looking briefly at Izuku before his eyes are drawn to his mouth. A kiss. A proper kiss, not the way they've been skirting around the edges. There's no taking this back.
But...he doesn't want to take it back. He doesn't want to take any of this back. He wants to move forward, so he does, letting his eyes slide closed and pressing a slow, careful kiss to Izuku's lips.
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...so...
...much.
He sucks in a sharp breath through his nose when Shouto's lips meet his, his eyelids dropping closed on instinct, and he's pressing back carefully with absolutely no idea of how this is supposed to happen. Does he turn his head? Does he open his mouth? He can feel his eyes get hot behind their lids, but refuses to outright cry over something like this, because it's overwhelming but it's overwhelmingly positive. He pulls back fairly quickly, another sharp breath drawn in, but licks his lips similarly to how Shouto had and presses forward again, this time just in a tap.
...except then he can't quit, and Shouto is stuck with the briefest of little peppered gestures, traveling from the center of his lips to each corner, and then he settles back at the center and lingers, letting his fingers curl around the fabric of his shirt until they shake and his knuckles turn white.
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They start with a dozen little kisses, Shouto almost repressing an urge to smile as Izuku peppers his mouth with those little touches like he's going to memorize the shape of his lips. It's sweet, and every touch just makes him want the next, and the next, until they meet again in a lingering kiss that just makes him feel like he's melting. Like his own quirk has turned against him, and it's the sweetest agony he's ever felt.
He doesn't quite manage to suppress the quiet sound he makes at the feeling, a sigh of contentment as his hand slides a little further up the other boy's back, tracing the line of his spine, gently urging him closer, and almost experimentally his lips part slightly as he tilts his head, shifting a little closer. What if...yes. It seems like if he does that, kisses Izuku's lower lip, everything fits together even more. They fit.
Maybe they'll get the hang of this, after all. With just a little practice.
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As a result, he jolts slightly when Shouto tilts his head and takes his lower lip as he does, startled by the boldness of the gesture, but-- it's not like he minds. He presses his own lips back, returning the gesture by closing his over Shouto's upper lip, but he's having a hard time not smiling, so he can't quite maintain the kiss, bumping their noses together and pulling away again to laugh.
"Your eyelashes are tickling me," he admits, opening his eyes just enough to look at him, his whole face blown a warm scarlet that makes his freckles stand out. He licks his lips again, and he tastes Shouto in a way he didn't expect. His expression goes slack in realization, and the warmth in his face darkens as he pulls his lower lip into his mouth for a moment, not realizing that he's literally savoring the flavor and probably looking unreasonably erotic as he does it. Izuku please be kind, you might make him burst a capillary.
U mean the most important part of a balanced breakfast?
He's worried for just a second when Izuku pulls back, but the smile on his face and the gentle sound of that laugh reassure him, make the warmth spreading through him that much stronger. He loves that laugh, and his own eyes blink open at the words as he smiles, too, just a little sheepish.
"Sorry..." He does have kind of long eyelashes. Although that one word is about all that he manages as Izuku's expression shifts and changes, as he pulls his lower lip in between his teeth and warmth of an entirely different sort floods through Shouto. God, he's beautiful, and then he does that and there's no question about it for Shouto. He's hopelessly attracted to Izuku.
He's only faintly aware of the way his own expression shifts, smile falling away and lips parting as he takes a shaky breath, eyes hopelessly drawn to Izuku's mouth. He doesn't have any idea, does he? The hand on Izuku's back slides to the side a little, Shouto's hand fitting itself around his waist, thumb lightly caressing his ribs, skimming over his stomach, and he licks his lips again.
"...We could keep going. If you want."
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"That'd be nice, I think," he replies, and his voice is quiet, eyes closed. He doesn't know that he wants to bring up that depending on what Shouto means by keep going it could get a little more... physical, because he's not sure he wants to entertain that thought or approach it enough to verbally dignify it. Maybe he'd just... ignore that impulse. "...I like you, Todoroki-kun. A lot." It felt nice to say it, now, not terrifying like it had been before.
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But...more of this would be nice. This soft exploration, learning the shape and the feel and the taste of each other. Shouto's legs shift against Izuku's, sock-clad toes sliding against his ankle, and he nudges Izuku's nose with his own in turn. "I like you, too, Midoriya," he answers, voice husky and barely above a whisper as he places a light, soft kiss on the other boy's mouth.
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"...what, um. When you say keep going..." He doesn't quite know how to ask how far.
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When Izuku draws back, it takes a moment for Shouto's eyes to open again, and there's a very distinctly dreamy look on his face as he tries to pull himself together again, focusing on Izuku and what he's saying. "Keep..." he echoes for just a moment, and then he remembers his own words and his expression clears a little. He's still not incredibly emotive, but Izuku knows him well enough, is looking close enough to see the hints of uncertainty in his eyes, the tilt of his eyebrows.
"I mean--I haven't really...done any of this before. With another person," he starts, and yes, that is in fact a faint flush on Todoroki Shouto's cheeks that is entirely the fault of one (1) Midoriya Izuku. "Not that I think you have, either. And that's fine. I just--I like you a lot. And this feels really good. So, maybe we can...figure the rest out, together. And if you want to stop, we can stop." It's not an answer. Not exactly an answer. But it's about as much of an answer as he's got so far. He wouldn't mind going further. Kissing Izuku other places, seeing if the rest of his skin tastes as good as his lips. Exploring the shape of his muscles, feeling those hands on him. And...well, maybe there are a few other things he wouldn't mind trying out, either, but he probably shouldn't say anything about those right away. Right?
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"I can't look you in the eye when I say this, but the only action I've ever gotten is my hand. Which isn't great because I kind of messed up the dominant one." Shouto will probably feel how red he goes as he says that moreso than see it, though the flush creeps down the back of his neck, too. "But, um." He chews on his lip again for a moment, and the taste Shouto left behind is less, this time. He doesn't... like that. He'd like more of that taste, not less. "...I'd definitely like to figure the rest out. With you."
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Shouto tilts his head back a little as Izuku dives forward, burying his face in his throat, and tries not to get distracted by the feeling of his breath against his collarbone as he listens to what Izuku has to say. Although what he has to say is plenty distracting, in and of itself, as now his mind is conjuring all sorts of images about what Izuku and his hand might have gotten up to, and--yeah, wow, he should. He should probably stop, calm down a little. Even if it's an incredibly compelling mental image. And Izuku isn't saying stop at all. In fact, he's saying...he's saying what Shouto had said. He's saying he wants this, too.
"It's the same for me, you know? So we'll just...do what feels good," he answers, voice a breathy rumble as he shifts his other arm, threading his fingers into Izuku's hair as his other hand slips back under his shirt again, exploring a little more boldly. If Izuku is more comfortable not looking, that's fine. They can work up to that. Because he definitely wants to see the look on his face when--
--okay, getting ahead of himself again. Hm. "I just want you to feel good," he murmurs again, a little softer this time, and presses a kiss to the crown of Izuku's head. However that ends up happening.
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"I want to feel you," he breathes, and he's pretty wholly unaware he even said that out loud.
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this icon cracks me up more than it should tbh
lmao it's a good icon tho
he do a succ
HE DO
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uses this icon because it's mostly fitting this time
I need more porny icons tbh
i'm slowly working on more i got u fam
Ur the best boo
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